I've got blind faith in you..

..maybe just a little too much.

As a line in a Poison song goes:

"if I bare my soul, don't you break my heart"


but you have, sort of.

Sometimes, I have to rethink being all-truthful.
Maybe sometimes it's better to just lie.

To pretend everything's fine, when asked, just say "I'm good, I'm fine, spankin'fuckingawesome thank you."

It'd prevent situations like this.
I shouldn't bare my soul to you, nor to anyone else completely. It only produces trouble, not just for me but I guess for everyone.

Just silence that screaming little person inside and smile! Everything's a-ok!

I know it's not the best of times to start crying, I should just go to sleep, there's school tomorrow and my eyes will look like shit. Also, maybe it'd all be better in the morning.


At least I hope so.


I'm such a pathetic loser anyway.